Slowly transitioning from this place of deep introspection, we see, feel, experience the foundation of our being has been re-organized. Metanoia, rooted in the ancient Greek word “meta", meaning beyond or after and “noeo", meaning perception or understanding. The word often is used for describing a profound transmutation of consciousness or change of heart.
“Carl Jung developed the usage to indicate a spontaneous attempt of the psyche to heal itself of unbearable conflict by melting down and then being reborn in a more adaptive form – a form of self healing often associated with the mid-life crisis and psychotic breakdown, which can be viewed as a potentially productive process.” (1).
Feeling this corona virus as one of the instigators, throwing the whole world into a necessary breakdown. This time has forced us all into deeper exploration, through many cycles of emotions, realizations, hard truths, facing our buried fears, healing with people in new ways, connecting to Mother Earth, and shifting our priorities.
Our rebirth process is slowly and mysteriously underway. The universal energies have profoundly reorganized themselves, in ways that we will see play out in our psyches, our lives, and the world around us. But it will take time to see the greater unfolding.
Slowly reemerging into the world, in this process of metanoia, I feel an internal integrity and alignment that is unwavering. Maintaining this new internal re-organization is a fine line of integrating with the rest of the world and holding reverence and devotion to the unique changes within.
Hopefully, we can watch the unfolding, with a true shift in our hearts, and a virtuous awareness that brings us into greater harmony amidst our brothers and sisters and the Earth.
Holding prayers and intentions for the highest outcome.
(1) R. Arp. 1001 Ideas That Changed the Way We Think
..the space in between...
4 years ago, I serendipitously arrived on the banks of the Ganges in Varanasi. When I walked down to the ghats for the first time, I was flooded with deja vu. Death and that time-space between death and birth was immediately very tangible, present and serious. The smell of burning flesh, the never-ending flames, the bathers…it was another dimension that demanded my entire awareness. Dead bodies were being cremated on the banks of the river, and the ashes were released into the holiest river in India. To end life in this way, is believed to end the cycle of death and rebirth, a final liberation, moksha, returning back to the Divine.
In this place, everything became more alive, more potent, more precious. Life was rich and overflowing with infinite energy. And at the same time, a crystal clear stillness echoed through everything. Every moment, every breath, every sensation, every sound, every color, every person was truly exquisite.
With the recent collective shift of energy, as busy-ness has slowed, and awareness of our mortality is heightened, these moments of potency have become more accessible. I’ve been mostly hermiting for the past 6 years, on a solo exploration following my curiosity and my adventurous soul to places where time and space cease to exist as we know it. It’s not been an easy practice to return to the States, where busy-ness as usual is prevalent. But something else is happening. We are opening to something new, and many are discovering depths of creativity, peace, emotion, stillness, beauty, inquiry. We get to explore another dimension, one that’s precious and hard to describe, yet we feel it’s exactly what we needed all along.
When I was in the jungle, I was dancing with the energy of surrender vs. giving up. Over the winter, I’d been feeling like I’d given up on many things - sustainable fulfilling work, motivation for creating my home, a stable supportive partnership, nourishing community, and even my physical appearance. Giving these things up, which were so tenderly held in my heart, was cutting off my life force. I had been working so hard it seemed, and deep down I was very tired. Giving up was giving into hopelessness, that nothing I did mattered.
The feeling of surrender is different. With surrender, there is a letting go - of letting go of the attachments to the way I expect life to work out. Surrender still honors the things in my heart and soul, yet dropping into complete trust in the intelligent flow of life to unfold for my highest evolution. Surrender is a place to rest deeply, to accept fully the present experience. Holding in surrender, inspiration and clarity still streams through. Here I feel the call to step back into the stream with my words, thoughts, actions and energy.
Many of us have been moving through so many emotions about what is happening. On all levels - personally, collectively, globally. Surrendering into the changes has not been an easy journey. But it’s not a time to give up our path, yet a time to refine, get clear on our truth of where we are. We drop into trust of the greater intelligence and our ability to move through life with it.
Protectress of Mother Earth, Energy Healing, Plant Medicine Integration, Coach, Writer