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At the heart of my life and work.
We humans are not separate, and the infinite interconnectedness is everything. We are in deep relationship with Mother Earth whether we are aware of it or not.
I left my work as an environmental engineer for many reasons. At the core, the frustration and struggle to move forward with decisions based on this truth was a lot to bear day in and day out. Our society lives in separation, believing we can control, force, regulate, or add more structure to our environment or to our actions. I knew something profound was and continues to be missing. People are living in disconnection not only with the Earth, but with themselves - one and the same. What is being asked for, is a reconnection, a remembrance, a reverence for the interconnectedness, the oneness, the divine, and the love that permeates and is everything. Our hearts know this truth, but we have to uncover all the ways we’ve forgotten.
I don’t know how it will all play out - how once we on a collective level rediscover our hearts and how our relationship with the Earth will transform. I only know it is happening already. One by one, we are all feeling the call to remember. As we rediscover what’s been missing, we can no longer go back to the world as it was.
The resurgence of plant medicines and psychedelics seems to point many to this call to remember, to see through the conditioned reality we humans live in. My prayer and hope is that the call will be respected and honored, and people will safely uncover their truth. It’s not a path for the faint of heart. So let’s please support each other in our remembering - in our grief, our sadness, and our love - in our shattering of realities, our crumbling lives, and our new visions. Let’s hold everyone and everything as teachers, as we all have a part to play in this evolution.
My own journey now calls me back to the jungle. It’s not something I can explain, yet when the plants call, I listen. I know they have something for me, some remembrance of myself, my being, my healing - which synchronously heals the Earth. I choose this path, as it unfolds before me, praying with each step that my part in the evolution is contributing to something much much bigger.
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Some of which are common for beginners, as they are learning how the healing with plant medicines work. Some of which are unfortunately more traumatizing than healing, often due to how the experience was held, facilitated, orchestrated, etc.
I’d just been writing on this topic, and a few good blog posts came across my feed. In one, the writer, a facilitator herself and an outspoken voice on the medicine, says “This is serious business.” (Recommend to read https://www.afterlife.coach/after-life-blog/shamans-need-training). And this one as well, where she talks about what can happen when facilitators don't know what they are doing. (https://kahpi.net/ayahuasca-ceremony-facilitator/)
With all the hype, popularity and celebrity status that the ego can get hooked on in the plant medicine world, many facilitators are serving the medicines as “healers” who have not had the proper training. And it’s not just about the training but also the intensely deep shadow work that the person themselves has gone through and continues to go through. I’d venture to say not only on a personal level, but also on a cultural, collective and even universal level.
Any shadow work not addressed by the facilitator that they themselves are carrying will emanate throughout the circle. In some ways, some see it as a “group” healing, yet for many, it can be traumatic and the facilitator is not able, skilled or trained to help those who are deep in the healing process. What I’ve also seen is that the group, or a portion of the group is then doing the shadow work for the facilitator, instead of them taking responsibility for it themselves. This is part of the learning of energy and plant medicine work- learning to work through our own shadows, and learning from the shadow work of other (including the facilitator.) However, there are facilitators who haven’t done much work, or ones who have shadow that may negatively influence your own ability to navigate and heal on a deep level.
I have been fortunate enough, having been in hundreds of ceremonies, that these types of experiences have only happened 5-10% of the time. Some of them, I’ve been able to remove myself from; others I have not. I ended up with the aftermath that has taken years to integrate- yes, years for some and some are still ongoing. While on some level, I was called to be there for my soul’s learning, I had to come to the very hard lesson of taking back my power by choosing not to work with someone who can’t actually hold the space I need to do my deep healing work. Even if everyone else says this is the best “shaman,” circle, spectacular show, etc. In some cases, I was holding the space (along with others) for the facilitator to do their work (or for them to ignore their work). While this happens in circles, as facilitators are humans too, how we choose to give our power away, and what roles and personalities the facilitators choose to play, can perpetuate wounding and the cycles we are intending to break free from in the first place. (More on this later.)
Choosing the path of your healing requires a responsibility. Do your own research, trust your intuition, and find the path that supports your highest evolution. Do not get caught in the appearances of what facilitators may want you to see, the outer performances, or in what everyone else is saying is the "best." It's up to you to decide.
For most of my life, I’ve felt like I've been misunderstood. I’ve been labeled as shy and introverted, yet when I’m with those who I truly resonate with, I can become extroverted and quite expressive. My extreme sensitivity and empathic tendencies have kept me at a further distance from others than I would like. We all desire human connection and understanding, and I have been more cautious. The journey of healing the root causes of this need for protection is intelligent in and of itself. Within my world of sensitivity, I dove deep into creative, imaginative and extraordinary realms, to share very little with others. As a kid, when I would share, or it would come out in an art class, people would be shocked or amazed that I’d been “hiding” that. I’ve confused many boyfriends and dates over the years when they sense both my sensitivity and a strength and they themselves have said they don’t know how to reconcile.
I think we easily get caught into labeling and stereotyping individuals into ways of being that aren’t true to their uniqueness. In my work with clients, we get to dive into parts and pieces that they feel have been misunderstood and they have rarely shown to the outside world. Ironically, these parts of them are also the ones that are offering the most precious gifts. The wounding, the fear, and the anxiety about seeing and uncovering these vulnerable gifts is a lot for someone to do alone. Having someone, a human, be able to see and understand and encourage the emergence of those gifts is invaluable. As we bring our gifts into the world, we feel a fulfillment and satisfaction on a soul level, that we never knew was possible.
I’ve been blessed to have teachers, healers, mentors and friends be able to see the deepest parts of me. People who can be present and curious with me and my uniqueness. Sometimes we need someone else to point out where the vulnerability and the beautiful gifts are, as we can’t see them ourselves. Why I’ve loved working on a very deep level with the plants, is that they too, can help point out these places within us, that are being called into expression in this world.
When we meet our teachers and guides, humans, plants and otherwise, we are incredibly lucky. We get to better see ourselves through their reflections, and step into a deep self-knowing, self-expression and showing up in the world.
Appreciating the ever-continuing journey and wishing all of us to feel welcomed and understood in our beautiful gifts. Our world needs everything we have right now.
𝗕𝗲𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮 𝗻𝗮𝘃𝗶𝗴𝗮𝘁𝗼𝗿 𝗼𝗳 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗼𝘄𝗻 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝘀𝗰𝗶𝗼𝘂𝘀𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀.
Your consciousness is filled with challenges and gifts that you are being called to uncover.
People are working with plant medicines for many reasons - most often healing and awakening. With this choice comes an increased responsibility. You take on more responsibility for yourself, your evolution, and your healing. It’s up to you to learn how to navigate reality yourself. And to find the support you need to help deepen you into your path. No one and no plant will do it for you. They can be teachers and guides, but ultimately it’s up to you.
Awakening in altered states of consciousness shatters reality as you had previously known it. Full integration is dissolving and surrendering into the unknown, and the re-gathering, or re-forming, of a new reality. Integration of these awakenings does not permit spiritual bypassing. You may need to revisit what’s been shattered to better understand, to heal and to bring that wisdom of letting go into the present moment. Spiritual bypassing- avoiding the pain, the wounds, the uncomfortable and not pretty places - ultimately does not serve. These are valuable imprints living in your consciousness - whether you are aware of them or not and whether you face them or not. They still inform your reality, the way you interact with the world, and how the universe responds to your thoughts, emotions, and actions. In an expanded state of consciousness, you may be able see them more clearly, when the time is right for you to see them. You may also see their purpose, their teachings for you and how you’ve gained invaluable wisdom and strength through them.
Ultimately, you bring back truth and new ways of being. You weave threads of expanded wisdom through multiple dimensions, aspects of consciousness, your psyche, your body and into your life. You interconnect these realities, and you step fully into the present. You do this for the purpose of healing, awakening, and living your true potential and unique purpose.
Becoming a navigator of your own consciousness is choosing a path of never-ending learning. You are often faced with throwing everything you thought you knew out the window…surrendering into the unknown over and over again. An initiation - where once you’ve crossed the threshold, there is no going back.
Awakening Through Ayahuasca + Sacred Plant Medicines
Beginning in February, I am offering a new online course: Awakening through Ayahuasca + Sacred Plant Medicines. This course is intended for those who want to dive deeper into what it means to be awakening with these powerful medicines.
Please see this page for more info!
I look forward to exploring with you!
As a growing number of people are seeking out psychedelics and entheogens to help them in their healing, it's important to understand that the experiences are life-changing. I wrote about some of my own experiences here. To truly gain the potential benefits, many seek support before and after their experiences to help them in their healing and transformation. Last spring I worked with a client, a US war veteran, to prepare him for a trip to the Amazon in Peru where he experienced the healing power of ayahuasca for the first time. We also worked together after his ceremonies weaving together his intentions and what he experienced in the Amazon to help him to better understand his unique journey and ground it into his life.
After our work together, he wrote "...[Jaime] was able to prepare me both mentally and physically for my Ayahuasca trip to Peru. Weekly, we spoke for at least an hour about my intentions and what I wanted to achieve with the Ayahuasca. Without her professional guidance, I would not have been successful with my journey in Peru. Even after my life-changing experience in Peru, she was able to help me afterward to further unpack my experience for my own spiritual growth."
This client is a huge advocate for this type of support, especially for his community of war veterans. He recently invited me to speak on a national podcast about the importance of integrating ayahuasca experiences. Along with Evan Ozmat, an ibogaine integration coach, we talk about:
Take a listen! AND I'd love to hear from you! What are your own thoughts on preparation and integration? What's worked for you? Where could you use more support? Please, feel free to email me or set up a call. Hearing from you helps me understand how to be of better support!
SUCCESS. How many of us are living and striving for “success” that isn’t truly ours? I’ve seen thinking about “success” lately, and realize how much conditioning still lives in me to be “successful.” How my nervous system can’t relax as it’s always on edge striving to be “successful”. Driven by unconscious fear and anxiety of being a failure instead of “successful." What does that even mean? I’ve uncovered some old hidden beliefs that I need to have a “respectable" career, that is doing something “good” for the world, and be making “good” money. I ventured down the path of being an environmental engineer, for these reasons 1) I wanted to do something to protect our planet (which was very much aligned with the care of the planet in my heart and soul), 2) it was an esteemed profession, 3) it would “pay” off (which seemed to be important to people when advising me on career choices). When I was studying engineering, I secretly knew I didn’t want to be an engineer. I had no idea what else to do, as I thought wanted to study art (or at least that was closer to what I wanted, but what my heart wanted didn’t seem to be out there), but that was ruled out as it went against my conditioning of making good money and doing something “good.” Now, as I’ve ventured into the path of healing and coaching for the last 5 years, I am bombarded with “success” stories, how to make more money, get "high-end" clients, sell yourself, etc. I find it overwhelming, with messages proclaiming to do this thing and then you will have “success.” I’ve even been caught a few times into believing that someone else had the answer, and abandoning my own natural wisdom. It’s been a reminder to watch myself and discover what truly is important to me. I have to carefully return back to my own path, of what is being asked of me at this moment, not jumping ahead into promises of something that I may not even really want or serve me or the world. My success is not externally defined, but an internal fulfillment and satisfaction. Yes, I would like to have enough money to care for my basic needs, and to travel to my favorite places on this Earth, and some recognition of my life’s work. But the path of success must follow what my soul's unfolding for me is. And I realize I come from a place of relative privilege for “success”, that the majority of the world does not have (well educated, middle class, housed and fed, white American). What’s important right now, is I trust the journey will bring the unique lessons I signed up for, I will be cared for in divine intelligence, and I will learn to take the steps needed in the world for my fulfillment. And I don’t have to force it into striving for some external definition- it is already here in the naturalness of living my life on this planet.
SUCCESS is right here, right now, as I am.
The holidays are happening! ✨ And they can be both enriching and challenging. While some of us enjoy time, festivities and tradition with family and friends, it isn’t always easy. For some, feelings of loneliness, depression, overwhelm, exhaustion and old unresolved emotions can arise. I spent many years out of the country at the holiday time. Partly to avoid the commercial chaos, and partly in a much needed act of self-care to go within without the distractions. Familial or cultural expectations around showing up to events, buying presents, and putting on a happy face can take their toll on us. Taking time for yourself, dropping into what you are feeling, what you need, and what will best serve your own well-being are the most beautiful gifts you can bring now. This time of year, as we dive into the depths of winter, is perfect for going inward, digesting and reflecting on our lives. It’s essential to hibernate and prepare for the new year, reevaluate our dreams and desires and let go of old experiences, emotions, and things that no longer serve us. Our hearts call us to discover our warmth and true path once again. In the process, we may need to see, feel and experience some uncomfortable emotions or hard truths. Remember to be sensitive to these as they may come up in ourselves or in those around us. It’s a precious time to be in our hearts and supportive of others.
If you feel you could use some extra support diving into your heart this season, I’m here. In 1-on-1 energy healing sessions, we create a space for you, your emotions and your hearts’ desires. We can work on rejuvenation, healing and creating unique practices to keep you grounded and aligned with your own well-being. You can email me at: email@example.com and feel free to share with anyone who may benefit from some support.
Wishing you warmth inwards and outwards. 🙏🏽
Blessings and love,
I am delighted to be settling into my new place. There’s still much to do, but I’ve slowed down enough to find myself on the verge of a deep sense of relief and rest. I now get to turn my attention to doing what I love, supporting people through healing. I have a few openings to do 1:1 sessions this month. Many ask about what these sessions are like. It’s unique for everyone, but here’s what sessions can include.
Luminous Energy Healing
Plant Medicine Integration
If you, or someone you know, could use some extra support, please email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. I’m happy to talk to you about how this may help you in your life right now.
Protectress of Mother Earth, Energy Healing, Plant Medicine Integration, Coach, Writer